When there is only space

If it is the end
then I don't want to see you go
because I am not strong
and I am not ready
and I don't know how to say goodbye
and words don't seem enough
and words are not enough
and nothing is.
If it is time
then I will stand here
with my eyes closed shut cos
I can't start the day with you here
and end it with you gone.
I don't know how
and I'll never know how
and this wasn't enough
and it never can be
and I'm not ready
and you can't go
and you started leaving
long before now
and it doesn't matter
and it never did
and you have to stay.
You have to stay.
You have to stay.
You have to.